everything is Subconscious
In term of counseling, it is a trap that you ignore your problems, feelings, and emotions as if nothing were happen and be happy all the time. It will become a burden on your shoulder in someday.
My confidence was gone after 2002, it was my conclusion after discussing with Man and my meditation. My memory in this year was like a broken pottery. I tried hard to reorganize fragments in my mind. This was my first year in university, a first time being a counselor for summer camp, being a spy in Orientation Camp, broken up with my ex-girl friend, being a committee member of Raleigh International Mountain Marathon........The critical part was broken up. Before this issue, I was strong; after that, I was eliminating in term of confidence, inter-personal skills, proactiveness.......and the relationship with God.
For this romantic relationship, I didn't know to share my feeling, how to discuss, how to share, how to handle my emotions. Escaping became my common practice. By my immature behaviour, broken up was expected. I nonethless, escaped again. I thought it was Ok, still fine, yet, it was erosive, it decayed my heart bit by bit until someday, today, I noticed it was determined.
By realizing my sources of puzzles, I know this rebuilding process is quick and this is a lesson for me to grow, to be mature. I am glad I can notice my subconscious and able to process it with my friends.
To Tung, who is my best buddy in my life: You did what I did. Please face your emotion, share with others. No shame at all, otherwise, you will pay your life. Self-esteem is inconsiderable when it stands in front of Life. I sincerely invite you to share, discuss, and commune with yours when you have a new one.
Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead.
My confidence was gone after 2002, it was my conclusion after discussing with Man and my meditation. My memory in this year was like a broken pottery. I tried hard to reorganize fragments in my mind. This was my first year in university, a first time being a counselor for summer camp, being a spy in Orientation Camp, broken up with my ex-girl friend, being a committee member of Raleigh International Mountain Marathon........The critical part was broken up. Before this issue, I was strong; after that, I was eliminating in term of confidence, inter-personal skills, proactiveness.......and the relationship with God.
For this romantic relationship, I didn't know to share my feeling, how to discuss, how to share, how to handle my emotions. Escaping became my common practice. By my immature behaviour, broken up was expected. I nonethless, escaped again. I thought it was Ok, still fine, yet, it was erosive, it decayed my heart bit by bit until someday, today, I noticed it was determined.
By realizing my sources of puzzles, I know this rebuilding process is quick and this is a lesson for me to grow, to be mature. I am glad I can notice my subconscious and able to process it with my friends.
To Tung, who is my best buddy in my life: You did what I did. Please face your emotion, share with others. No shame at all, otherwise, you will pay your life. Self-esteem is inconsiderable when it stands in front of Life. I sincerely invite you to share, discuss, and commune with yours when you have a new one.
Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead.
Philippian 3:14
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June 20, 2005 12:26 AM,While u are still hunting for jobs, u can take this time to do some quality thinking of life.
Looks like u know what's going on about urself again. Nice:=) !P
June 20, 2005 4:31 PM,
I agreed. I am full of positive energy now and have to develop a anti-negative power .....HAHAAHHAHHHHA !P
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